I hate that feeling when you see or hear something that just hurts or at the very least makes you uncomfortable. Ive tried my best to stay away from everything that reminds me of him and still little things creep up. I hate the feeling I get in the pit of my stomach when you pop up in my life. It’s so hard to describe because Im just not sure what I feel anymore. I guess part of it is that I miss him but Im very aware of the anxiety that I was feeling towards the end so I dont quite know how both of those feelings could exist together.
I just dont know anything anymore…
Ive had a lot to drink sorry if my blogging is getting weird